ten things....

I'm grateful for. I saw this on someones blog and decided to copy since i have nothing interesting to write.

1) I'm grateful for sleep. Ive been waking up before 7:30 everyday for the past three weeks and sleep hasn't felt better in my whole life.

2) I'm grateful for Jason standing beside me and my decision to take Haley out of school. The support he has to offer me means more then he will ever know.

3) I'm grateful for friends. I only have a Small handful of friends but the ones i do have are genuine. They accept me for who i am, crazy ole me. And i know if i ever needed anything they would be there for me. Even the ones who don't live close ;)

4) I'm grateful for my strong marriage. A few people i know are having troubles in their relationships and its a great reminder to value what Jason and i have. I'm grateful that all i have to complain about in my marriage is the trash being taken out.

5)I'm grateful for the commissary. I know this is silly but really i am. I can spent 140 dollars and eat for a month when i shop there or i can spend 140 at kroger and eat for a week.

6) I'm grateful for my mini van. NEVER have i ever thought i would say this but with three small kids its really been a life saver. I cant wait till the day when i can trade it in but for now its very useful.

7)I'm grateful for our church. For the first time ever i feel like i belong at a church. Ive been to many other churches and i never got the feeling that i wanted to go back . I feel welcome there.

8) I'm grateful to be a women. I love it. I love dressing up, makeup, shoes, purses, manicures, pedicures.... anything girly.

9)I'm grateful for the air force. There is so much about it that i don't really care for but when its all said and done the air force has given us a great life so far. We have met some great people through the air force also. Im not sure where we would be without it.

10) Im grateful for the Internet. I dont think i could live without it. thats sad but true. I love that so much information is at my finger tips. Im addicted to blogger, myspace, gossip columns.... its a sad truth.

Of course im grateful for so much more then this. But these are just a few random things im grateful for.

should have trusted my gut

Haley has been going to school for about three weeks now. The past week has been so hard because she suddenly doesnt want to go. I have to leave her screaming every morning and its getting to be to much on all of us. First of all the school is on the other side of town so it sucking my gas like crazy. Im spending about 85 dollars a week. Let me remind you that we are poor. lol Haley has been so heart broken just having to go but also when she gets home she is so crabby because its been such a long day. So far she hasnt told me one thing that she has learned and the teachers dont give you a report on what went on that day. I ask her what she did that day and every single day all she can tell me is she ate lunch and took a nap. she can never remember any activities they have done. Haley isnt the only one feeling the pain. I have been trying so hard to be patient with this but im so crabby myself because i have to wake up so early. Im dangerous without my sleep. I should have listened to my instinct in the first place but i felt pressure from other moms and now im up creek without a paddle. Jason wants to give it more time and im ok with that but if she doesnt show signs of improvement within two weeks i think i may take her out. They arent teaching her anything that i cant teach her myself. I have to pull all three kids and a double stroller out 8 times a day. It would all be worth it if she enjoyed it, but if she is going to be miserable every single day why should i spend that much money in gas and wake up so early?? Jason says i should keep her in because i wont be able to just pull her out of kindergarten. I see his point but that school is only half a mile from my house. we wont have to wake up as early and she will be a little older. I will cross that bridge when i get there. I miss my girl . this is my last year with her untill i have to send her to elementary school. Is it wrong for me to feel this way?

crazy hair day

Saturday was cheer leading and it was crazy hair day. Haley had the craziest hair there. It was soo funny. I put three pom poms on each side of her head and sprayed it pink and orange. It was so much fun! When i told her what i was going to do she was like "no mommy thats too crazy for cheer leading!" I showed her the example picture that they gave us and she agreed. She had a blast. I love that she enjoys this because its so positive. They start off with a prayer and they learn bible verses . They earn stars on their mega phones for doing a good job. And they always end with a prayer. Plus she has so many little girl friends now!

our melt down in a nutshell

Today started off like any other day. We wake up at 6:30 and get ready for school. We have to be at the school by 8 oclock and i have three kids to get fed and ready so thats why we have to wake up that early. well for some reason , today we were off schedule. I promised haley a pink donut because we had nothing for breakfast. I bought milk last night and left it out ..... so it spoiled. We finally get out of the door with just 20 minutes to get a donut and get to school on time. By the time i pull up to the school its 7:59!! so im rushing to get the kids out of the car because i HATE to put her name on the "tarty" chart. Well when i open the trunk to get the stroller..... its not there. we went for a walk last night and failed to put it back. so im holding peyton and i go to get maddy but she hasnt finished her donut yet. I put the donut to the side and tell her we will get it when we get back in the car. She screams at the top of her lungs so i just pull her out of the car hoping that she will forget about it. well she didnt and she felt the need to let everyone know how mad she was. she screamed bloody murder through the whole center. we finally reach haleys class and i try to kiss haley goodbye quickly but sincere and she starts to bawl her eyes out saying she wants to go home. Let me add that peyton was mad too. so i have three screaming kids. Haleys teacher looks at me and says hello and i said hello then turned around and walked away. We left. Im dragging maddy, holding peyton and hurrying haley along ... getting all kinds of stares and glares. We reach the car.... and haley is screaming she wants to go to school. At this point i couldnt take anymore. I strap em in ..... and go home. They knew how mad i was because they didnt make a peep on the way. When we got home they were both saying their sorrys. Im not sure what in the world im going to tell her teacher in the morning but i just knew i had to get out of that center before i blew up. It really was a nightmare. my kids have NEVER acted this way. I was so embarrassed

tis the season......

for spiders!! O my heavens! There are so many spiders here its unreal.. Jason killed two black widows last weekend and that sent him on a hunt to find more. In total...... 11 black widows. Its so scary im getting chills thinking about it. I wish i had taken a picture to show you but it wasnt on my mind at the time. They were in the garage, back yard, right by my front door, on the grill. ALL OVER. Its so scary too because the kids play in the backyard and have been in the garage too. What if they had gotten bit! We found many other spiders also. One that was green with a HUGE butt. I think its called a flower spider. So we have had our eyes open for them. Jason sprays home defence every day! Its really that bad.

theres no place like home

Lately i have been missing my family some kind of fierce. I havent been back home in a year now. Im not even sure if its missing my family because my mom and brother were here only a few months ago. Maybe i just miss good ole north cackalacky. I never knew how much i loved it there until i moved away. Its nice to see other places but there really is no place like home. I miss my small town of Jacksonville, Carolina style BBQ, the beach,Family, friends. I think that not having many friends is wearing on me. I am with my kids 24/7 and thats not a bad thing but it would be nice to leave them with someone i trust for a little while so i can run errands or something. Just something to let me catch my breath and thoughts. I rarely leave the house unless i have to because when we get to the stores i spend more time loading and unloading then i do in the store. Military life is hard. If only i could tap my ruby red slippers together and be back home.

CHUG! CHUG! CHUG!

Thats what i have to do to get this rank tasting green tea down. Ive tried to sweeten it a little but it taste like grass. I read that there are all kinds of health benefits and it helps with weight loss too so im giving it a try. This is part of being a healthier me. Im hoping that the longer i strive to be healthier, the easier it will be. Im craving brownies some kind of fierce tho.

HELP

This is and emergency! my hair is falling out by the hand fulls!. I looked up all kinds of things that could be making my hair fall out .One reason could be from a sluggish thyroid that can be detected from a blood test. Another could be stress but im not all that stressed out .... i dont think. So Im guessing that is my hormones from having a baby 5 months ago because the same thing happened after i had maddy. When i get out of the shower, it looks like there is a rodent in the drain. I got some fancy shampoo called Nioxin that a stylist recommended and ive been using it but to be honest it smells like medicated dog shampoo. Im tempted to use rogain but have you looked at the price of rogain lately... probably not.... but its like 45 dollars. I would post a pic but its embarrassing enough just talking about it. I can hide it well with my hair down but it impossible to pull it back. I look like an old man with a receding hair line. I need advice... this is serious

Hey You In The Stands..........

....stand right up and clap your hands. Haleys first game was today. It was so adorable. She did great and actually remembered the cheers. She is the smallest and youngest girl on the team, the other girls tower over her! We got some good pics to share. Enjoy

can it be true!?!

Gas is at $4.59 here. I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw them. I filled up yesterday at $3.67. Not like that's even a good price.Jason had to get gas today at the price because he was on Empty. He waited in like for a good while on base before they told them they were out of gas. ITS MADNESS.

lil thumb sucker

Yup , peyton is a thumb sucker. I didnt know how i would feel about this before i had a child that did it. To be honest i think its the cutest thing ever. I just wanna snuggle with her when i see her cuddle her blanket to her face and stick that little thumb in her mouth. Im a little afraid because unlike binkies , i cant throw it away. Haley and maddy were addicted to binkies like crazy and they got rather annoying after a while. Taking them to stores and they drop on the floor, Looking high and low in the house just to get them to sleep. At least with a thumb she can sooth herself whenever she needs to without my help. Im not sure how i will feel about it when she is older, but for now its just so sweet.

remembering

I remember the day like it was yesterday. I was a freshman in high school sitting in English class. A teacher from another class comes in and tells us the news. No one really understood the severity of it all. Class let out and i went to my next class where they had a tv on. None of it seemed to make any sense.I kept wondering WHY? I just remember feeling so sad for the people who didnt know if their loved ones were ok. I couldnt imagine getting a phone call from a loved one saying their goodbyes. Im so proud of all of the men and women who risked their own lives to save as many people as possible.I dont understand this war anymore but i support the troops 100%. My husband hasnt had to fight in any wars so far. I hope he never has to because im selfish and i know he doesnt want to either, but If he had to he would and im so proud of him for that sacrifice.To ALL of the men and women in uniform My prayers are with you. Also to all of the families affected my this horrible day.

im ready for fall ...yall

About a week ago i was browsing around hobby lobby looking at all of their festive fall decorations. It gave me an itch to dig out my stuff and decorate for fall. Im super early i know but im just so ready for summer to be done. The heat here is so bad it feels like we have been in the house all summer. not to mention the humidity. Jason wont let me decorated outside yet..... hes afraid of what the neighbors will think. I say who cares but i pick my battles and decorate the inside. Haley and maddy colored some pumpkins while we watched the Bearnstein bears Halloween. At night when the pumpkin pie scented candle is lit and the lights are out it actually feels like fall. Too bad you cant actually feel a chill in the air until late November around here. For now i can just pretend right?

rain rain go away

Hurricane fay blew in some nasty rain and had us locked up in the house for what seemed like and eternity. The cutest thing was maddy standing at the window singing rain rain go away with her umbrella. just wanted to share this picture and the story behind it.

pre k

Haley had her first day of Pre k today. I didnt think she would be going this year because she didnt get a spot in the public school. We were on a waiting list and they just called me and told me to come in and fill out some paper work and she can start the next day. It all happened so fast but she went this morning and LOVED it. I decided on it because i just dont have the time to do the things i used to do with her. She was getting so bored and everyday when the school bus would stop in front of our house she would tear up asking when it was her turn.I love that you have to punch in a code in order to get to the children. This helps with my fear of intruders. The only thing that had me scared about this learning center is that they provide all the food and i cant pack a lunch for her unless she is allergic. Well i looked at the menu and my skinny mini haley girl wont eat half of those things and i didnt want her to be hungry. so i called her doctor and she wrote a note saying that i can pack a lunch for her on days that i know she wont eat whats on the menu due to her low weight. YAY. i love her doctor. I just cant have my little girl going hungry all day. Anywho, her teachers said she did so good and fit right in. When we dropped her off she kept telling me i can leave now! she is growing up too fast.